Friday, 5 June 2015

Cover up your colostomy bag?


So this charming specemin of a "human being" left this comment on my beautiful best friend Bethany Townsend's instagram.

Firstly it just proves a point that even stupid people can use computers.


This is the photo she commented on:

Friday, 1 May 2015

Washing lines and razor blades.


So I thought I'd begin with providing a prime example of how BPD can make even the simplest of tasks a complete and utter meltdown of a challenge.

I just wanted to hang out some washing, couldn't understand how the washing line worked and my brain instantly resorted to RAGE.

Friday, 24 April 2015

A little chat with Luissa Burton

Model: Luissa Burton, MUA/Stylist: Sophie Hulme
Hairstylist: Chloe Britton, Photographer: Elspeth Van Der Hole

Today I had the pleasure of interviewing one of my favourite people and models of my career so far - Luissa

Wednesday, 22 April 2015

She's Got A Body To Die For.

She’s got a body to die for.

An investigation into fashion photography and how it affects body image amongst women; with focus on western society and the representation of the ‘perfect body’ from 1950 to 2013.

Monday, 20 April 2015

Illusion D'Optique

Editorial featuring Rebecca Saygi's 3D pattern, printed designs.

Models: Nikki Hafter & Shawna Leigh

MUA: Brooke Price

Hairstylist: Kirsty Parker

Photographer: Elspeth Van Der Hole

Tuesday, 14 April 2015

We can complain that rose bushes have thorns...

Or we can rejoice because thorn bushes have roses.

Life is all about perception.

What I have learnt over the last couple of days is that so few people understand reality and find it easy to get clouded in judgement and obsess over minuscule problems. Myself included!

Today is the 2 year anniversary of my father's death. To some that may be a terrifying and sad occasion, but in fact the sun is shining and it's a day that reminds me to take good care of myself.

Thursday, 2 April 2015

Changing Faces with MUA Cassie Rule

I recently shot with one of my favourite people in the world to work alongside.

Makeup artist - Cassie Rule!

We've worked together quite a few times before and she always produces incredible results but this, to me, was on another level.

No one has ever asked me to photograph the model in a 'before' shot.

I didn't think twice about it when shooting, other than naturally, most girls don't want their photograph being taken sans make up - but after I got home and looked at them, I just love the raw beauty of them.

Sunday, 29 March 2015


So this was posted today, PUBLICLY, on my PERSONAL Facebook account.

I'm going to be honest about how I felt about this because I think a number of people would pretend they brushed it off and that they are immune to any 'haters'.

Nope, I felt physically sick, and then I cried like a baby down the phone to my boyfriend who had to remind me that not everyone felt this way and that this one man, that I don't even know, doesn't matter.

Thursday, 19 March 2015

"You don't look like you'd have depression."

A statement said to me recently.

I laughed it off at the time, merely because I was too stunned to know what to say back to it.

What does depression actually look like?

It doesn't.

Monday, 12 January 2015

Body confidence isn't always about weight loss.

Sometimes you need to be happy with certain aspects and shapes of yourself; when people talk about being confident in your own skin we often mistake this for overweight people wanting to lose a few pounds because there is that common misconception in life that being skinnier will make you happy again.

This shoot was another special one for me. 

Pip (Sophie), is recovering from anorexia and as all my ED suffering friends know, this is a bloody tough, long road to go down. Especially when you pile anxiety, depression and BPD on for the ride.

Tuesday, 6 January 2015

The BPD Generation

We're all mental, it just depends on who's willing to acknowledge it.

The entire world is turning into a mental health pandemic. It's split into two types, the people who acknowledge it, and the people who don't.

Unfortunately for us BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) types, we're too complicated for 99% of the population to even want to consider acknowledging.